What is My Purpose in Life?
This year begins on an alien note for me. And this post is all over the place. Bear with me.
After the first few hours of the new year, with all the excitement and joy, I was plunged into a sea of wonder and uncertainty, just like it had been throughout the month of December. I had wondered every blessed day what I had achieved throughout the year.
And now…
I keep asking myself, what am I here for? Do I have a purpose? What is it? Or have I missed it somehow?
As I type this, I have just finished crying my eyes out and the veins on my head still hurt!
I guess I just had to let it out, all the frustration and anger. I needed to offload. I needed to relieve myself of the stress of too much thought. It’s crazy.
And Nigeria doesn’t help. I feel like I need to get away. So much that I spent gauge part of today going through TOEFL websites and scholarship offers. Because even if I do get admitted into any university abroad, I do not have any means of sponsoring myself. It’s crazy!
So now it’s a few months to passing out of NYSC and all I can think of is, what next? What am I going to do?
What?
I mean, if I knew my purpose in life, it would be much easier to plan. But right now, I’ve got learning the guitar, taking writing classes, working on my weight and crushing hard on photography while wishing for a camera of my own on my plate.
I need to specify. Don’t I?
18 Comments
Red
Heeeyyyy. Breathe. Not all of is are born with that “life purpose”. Many of us will stumble around for a while before we find our calling. I say follow you passion and give life your best shot everyday.
Purpose isn’t always one big thing that we are here for. Life can have meaning even in the small mundane things in life, like caring for your parents and talking to friends. As long as you are trying, you life has meaning.
Check out my post https://redconfidential.com/2017/09/13/when-you-cant-see-yourself-in-5-or-10-years/ I hope it brightens your day.
Hugs
Deshi Nenkinan Nehemiah
Sweetheart Calm down. I know how you feel all too well.
Stop being hard on and punishing yourself. Don’t look at what other people your mates have done and accomplished you’re different. Count the little blessings they matter! Watch news and consider your many privileges.
Then go out and do what you can. Don’t let the devil keep you in a pit
NaijaFreshGraduate
Thanks, Deshi. I’m really trying.
Deshi Nenkinan Nehemiah
https://spokenvoiceless.wordpress.com/2017/09/07/when-its-time/
cravejadeblog
Hey dear, I was once in this phase last year during my finals. Just take your time, allow nature take its course, breathe and keep telling yourself you are an overcomer. You are wonderfully made and awesomely beautiful
NaijaFreshGraduate
Awesomely beautiful… That feels good 😊
NaijaFreshGraduate
Thanks, Jade
SKILLS
Don’t crash trying so hard to figure out what your purpose in life is. Instead, enjoy every moment no matter how little each achievement is, it’ll all work out fine and also work in your favour. Keep calm and stay happy ♥
NaijaFreshGraduate
Yes. ‘Keep calm and stay happy’ seems easy enough. Thank you, Skills
justbeingnessa
I browse the web for study abroad scholarships offers, even apply and send mails. But ironically I don’t have a sponsor. I guess we are all hoping for a miracle.
NaijaFreshGraduate
And miracles we all shall get. Hope is the keyword.
Thanks Nessa.
Bella
It may take a while to fully find your purpose, if you believe in God, then pray and ask The Holy Spirit to guide you into your purpose. While at that find something you are passionate about and begin to explore and research the best possible way to work on it, and also listen… not to your complaining head, but to the inner voice. Remember, its one step at a time. We are all finding our purpose.
NaijaFreshGraduate
Of course we are. Thanks, Bella
Bella
PS: the writing and photography is a good place to start. Freelance writing maybe and internship in a photography studio maybe, save up gradually for a camera and equipment while on a day job. Just ask God for guidance.
NaijaFreshGraduate
Thanks again for the time dear
Peter Adewumi
Yes, that is the most correct decision: Skill acquisition.
NaijaFreshGraduate
Good to know I’m on the right path. #sigh
Peter Adewumi
Definitely, you are.